For me, today is a really blue day, I even can not find anything which can let me happy or I could be happy for...
Somany things happened on the direction which's not my desired, I know, I can not change or rule everything, but something I thought I can totally control originally also was actually developed in the way I disliked...
I only can say here, it's the way the reality goes, and although it's not what I want, I still need to strive for, and insist on...